The Next Phase Will Be Swim Team Practice All Over Again…
Holy crap! I haven’t posted a blog in 5 months! I suppose it’s time I got back at it, eh?
It’s been a crazy time. A lot has happened, but much has stayed the same. Damn, you’d think I had something better to show for it.
I got asked to take a job and stop everything else I was doing professionally and personally, with the promise of all sorts of future treasures. I gave it my all. Lesson learned, anyone who tries to persuade you to just “suck it up now and you’ll be rewarded later” is basically trying to get cheap labor. lol I am worth far more right here, right now. I did however learn to trust in my capabilities and myself in general. I now am confident in my worth. To quote Shakespeare, “Thou shalt not be tempted by fuckery”. (Ok, might not have been Shakespeare…)
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In other news, I had a daughter graduate high school. She will be starting at Quinnipiac University in Hamden, CT next week. I had my youngest daughter take driver ed this summer, hoping to drive soon. And my son will be starting his senior year at NYU next week. After next week, I’ll have just 1 child at home. My life is changing at a rapid pace. I have a myriad of emotions. Good, bad, and ugly. So excited for my children’s bright futures, I can’t wait to see what they will do! But sad that I won’t have the little people I love and enjoy so much around the house everyday. It’s only natural.
Also, well you probably knew I bought a house in January, moved in in February and after 6 years, am single again. All is well, we’re still friends, just on different paths. No heartbreak on either side. We’re both happy and I am so grateful for having him then and now.
Oh yeah, I also turned 50 in June and had a few friends my age die in the past 5 months. One was a really good friend from childhood that hit me really hard. Loved that guy like a brother. At times it feels like I really have reached a fork in the road, my life is on a completely different level now, dealing with completely different situations that are now absolutely par for the course.
After the death of both of my parents in the past 3 years, I felt my mortality but Jesus Christ now I feel like I’m a completely different person faced with both exciting freedom and a bit of loneliness. It will simply take adjusting. I know I will be fine. But it’s like when I was on the swim team all those years… I absolutely dreaded getting in the chilly pool at 6:30am, then again at 3:00pm. But each time, I just sacked it up and dove in, the initial shock sucked and made me want to cry, but after a few minutes of warm up laps, I got used to it and it was fine. Even had fun joking with teammates in my lane in between sets. Yes, yes, I will be fine, more than fine… and so will my babies.